Turbulent

"Morning"......the moment I opened my eyes....the bright afternoon sunlight dazzledme.....or should I say evening....I'm not that clear by that time....Just feel dizzy....

The bright light makes me feel uneasy..the rise in temperature awake me....roll and roll....want to fall back in sleep..but can't..is terribly hot and dazzling....grr.....I wish the curtain can be thicker...

Reluctantly....I leave my bed...wow....4pm....and 4 miss call...few messages...didn't feel like to call back...straight to my lovely pc...every action seems automated....just sit in front the pc....blank blank and blank....few minutes later..finally able to regain all my senses>.<

Planned to take a bath then straight to the birthday celebration....

But everything mess up by a phone call.....A phone call that triggers off a turbulent situation...from my mom....saying that they are coming....BOOM....(brain exploded...)WHAT???? (the words are echoing inside my brain) Question mark all over my brain...I thought they are coming on sunday....for the Mother's Day dinner....At last....is my fault....I mix up the time....grr..hate myself....prepare myself in a hurry....but it started to rain....heavily...grr...why now....damn sleepy and dizzy....damn pale and unhealthy....going to get scold by my parents soon....with not taking care myself.....@.@..grr......grrr...grrrr...... I WANT TO SLEEP~~!!! Regreting for sleeping so "early" in this important day....

~gotta go....bye...my lovely bed...i will miss 'u'~

Live Like We're Dying

Kris Allen - Live Like We're Dying

Sometimes we fall down and can't get back up

We're hiding behind skin that's too tough

How come we don't say "I love you" enough

Till it's to late, it's not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come

And we could make a feast from these crumbs

And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun

So if your life flashed before you

What would you wish you would've done

Yeah... gotta start

Looking at the hand of the time we've been given here

This is all we got and we gotta start pickin' it

Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'

Gotta live like we're dying

We only got

86 400 seconds in a day to

turn it all around or throw it all away

we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say

gotta live -- like we're dying

Turn it all around or throw it all away

We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em

While we got the chance to say

Gotta live like we're dying

And if your plane fell out of the skies

Who would you call with your last goodbye?

Should be so careful who we live out our lives

So when we long for absolution

There'll no one on the line

We only got

86 400 seconds in a day to

turn it all around or throw it all away

we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em

while we got the chance to say

gotta live -- like we're dying

You never know a good thing till it's gone

You never see a crash until it's head on

Everything go right when we're dead wrong

You never know a good thing till it's gone

Yeah... gotta start

Lookin' at the hand of the time we've been given here

This is all we got and we gotta start pickin' it

Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'

Gotta live like we're dying

Found this song in my messy music folder....and find that the lyrics are very meaningful...Is very true...live like we're dying...we don't know the next moment will we still be here...appreciate what we have now..do what we want to do..don't make yourself regret in the future^^...

~treasure every moment and people in our life^^~

War Begins

Few hours later......

The first war in my degree life will explode....

Ready.....Arm....and

Start......

....KILL YOU ALL....

~hope after that I'm still in whole body....keep my finger cross.@.@~

Study Week = Free??? Study???

Oh....my lovely blog....
sorry for neglected you so long....
is not my fault....is the connection's fault.... #*&#@^&%!@!^*
(okok....not only the connection's fault...I should also bear some responsibility.....I admit that I start to be lazy...everyone knows that...XD I'm always the lazy one....)

Erm....the lazy one...means me...is now undergoing a very suffering week...."Study Week"....
Normally...study week is a torturing week....everyone knows about that....where you need to "work like a dog"...to prepare for your exam....every minute..every second also can't let go....it may be the critical moment for you to get pass or A in exam....
But....this "well- known" situation...seems does not approach to me...WHY..???...Well.....I didn't "work like a dog"..."eating or chewing books"...but I still feel suffer...suffer because of nothing to do....(I'm not being ego here...)is truth....Apart from watching drama or movies till midnight.....4-5am....sleep till the next "afternoon"....12-2pm...I got nothing to do.... seems like a cycle.....I've gone through these few days like this....again and again...nothing special....Everyday seem meaningless....live like a zombie..or you can say vampire..XD

Sometimes....really have to admit that I'm a coward..timid to face failure...I set my mind to get something...but I always can't go at full steam to get it...then I will just let it go easily...or...lower my expectation.. so that I won't be too disappointed with what I can't get....OR....more accurate....I always set a target where I need not to use my full strength to archieve it....A target that are not challenging at all....Because..I'm afraid that when I'm work in too much but can't get what I want...I will feel extremely disappointed....where I hope this won't happen to me.....So...is it good to be like now???....low expectation= low disappointment?? wondering....

I need some push....Push that can really make me start to work....hate to be free..when everyone is working hard to get what they want....hate to be so unperseverance in doing everything....haiz....maybe when come to the exam days...only I will start to feel stress....or may not....Can I blame it as being too optimistic..until I always think that it won't be too bad to get low marks...too bad to repeat...?? What is the big deal?? (being over optimistic again...>.<)

Well...got to start working tomorrow.....(hope that I can really do that... as what I have said here...>.<) Friday will be the start of my exam week..and the first subject will be Management Principle...the subject that let me down with a low coursework mark....T.T...KILL YOU SOON.....LET US SEE WHO WILL SMILE TILL THE LAST...hehehe....all the best to my beloved friends..^^

~start to work on it......."soon"...>.<~

I'm 19~~!!

9 of April 2010~ A new start..begining of my 19 years old life....Officially...I'm 19 now~~!!XD (well...why am I announcing my age.....=.=" proud to be old??XD)

I had a memorable and meaningful birthday. When the hour hand and the middle hand met each other in front of the number of twelve, the "evil forces" that stirred in my room...exploded and invaded my night....( confused with what I'm talking??) Allow me to explainXD...

Actually..is a very tired night....finished celebrated my beloved "maths teacher"'s birthday (foon)...then being pulled to westlake to accompany them to get some fresh air..And finally..able to pulled my body..back to my lovely house....damn tired by that time...As usual....straight to the first floor and open my door..thinking to stick with my lovely PC and bed...But....Something happened......

The moment I opened my door....is dark as usual..(because we close the light before out...) but....I saw the "evil forces" gathering there and singing birthday song...Wow....I was totally shocked by that time...wow wow wow....my jaws nearly dropped to the floorXD ....reflexively...wanted to closed back the door...XD..haha....trembling and smiling uncontrollably.....Oh my gosh.....birthday cake with candle...birthday song with guitarXD...nice.....Can't believed my eyes that moment....

*evil forces: those who always plan to give surprise and love to see people getting shock....XD

Again.... make a wish and blow out the candle....Switch on the light...Wow....shocked again...there are 30+ people inside my room....Oh my.....haha....my lovely friends... TA5 classmates.... EN classmates....really a big surprise....Thanks for the birthday song and Chin's guitar performance..hehe.is nice^^

Had a crazy night....XD first time gather with my EN classmates...meaningful..found that they are quite playful and funny...thanks for their present too...besides that..thanks to those who attended the celebration that night and those who wishes me....This shall be a nice memory...All my friends.....million thanks..^^ thanks for giving me a special and wonderful birthday celebration..^^

My birthday present^^ Three patrickXD..

Special guest of the day^^~Mei Yan

EN classmate...XDXD

TA5 gang^^

Me and my present-->Patrick and card^^

~L.O.V.E~

Well, apart from celebration with my friends....I had another celebration with my family....yeah yeah~!! love them as always...once again..thanks for the cake..wishes...and for the angpauXD...love my dad and mom...aunt and uncle..grandma..sister and brother..hehe^^Muacksss...

Now...is over...and I'm 19 XD..next year onwards....I won't mention my age anymore XD.....20+ is coming...ohXD

~thx for everything..Muacksss~

Tomb- Sweeping Day + Lightning & Thunderous Night

Wake up early in the morning-->5.30am sharp....
Get packed and started our journey down to Tualang, my grandfather's house.
Unexceptionally, whole Chai's family will have to gather there. No matter where you are living or working, you just have to put down all the things and come back for the tomb- sweeping day. It becomes a non- written law, since my family lay stress on commemoration for the ancestors.

As usual, climb up to the hill, and start to clean their tomb. Haha... actually I'm not that clear who they are (the ancestors>.<)...What I mean is...I always mixed up their tomb...haha..idiot me...But I still pay my respect to them unexceptionally. Few routine steps: clean--> arrange oblatory--> and pay our respect. Repeat the same steps when sweeping the two other tombs. Everything settled around 11am..Exhausted..>.<

Found that the younger generation like us really know nothing about tomb- sweeping. We just know what to follow during that time but not the real meaning..even though we know, we may not really understand the needs and the reasons of doing that... My dad always says...when come to our generation...will us still come to pay respect as they did...Truthfully, I also don't know...Haha..may or may not...maybe come to that age..I will do the same thing...if I start to learn now...haha...

But forget about that, Tomb- sweeping day is still a meaningful day, where we  pay our respect to the ancestors. Without them, we can't be here. They are roots. And as the saying goes,  we must always appreciate their contribution to the family.
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End of Tomb- sweeping...
Now, back in Kampar..again...>.<
Is weird at night....continuously lightning and thunder....forced me to shut down my pc and pull out the plug to prevent getting strike by the lightning... I don't hope to see my PC start smoking...haha

I can clearly see the lightning strike down from the sky to the earth through the balcony....The dark sky being lightened up for a few second....Is really near...Is beautiful..magnificent...The color...is.... really hard describe it with my lousy english....But what I can say is really spectacular...Haha...but it makes ah wah screaming non- stop..XD Is noisy..haha...Joking joking....I thought it will rain heavily tonight..but it just end up with a quite and calm night...Still, it is windy..cozy enough to have a good night sleep...^^ Is time to go bed~~

~Nitezz~~Sweet dreamz^^~

Unexpected Pre- Celebration

2 April 2010 (Friday)
Finally, I'm back~~Back from Kampar^^
After two torturing weeks in Kampar, I'm free now. Free from exams and presentations.
Before back, Huoy San already ask us to join the steamboat night on Friday. Hehe, sure we will join. To gather with "old" friends. ( this old does not mean that old.XD)
Well, is good to be home^^ with nice soup, nice bed, nice air-cond, my grandma homemade curry^^(specially for me- not spicy one)

Ok. Get to the most exciting part--> Steamboat Night
Raining cats and dogs that night. As usual, Simon be the driver to fetch usXD. Reach there and started our steamboat night. haha...Something happened when we are eating.. The light flashed for a few times. At first, we did not aware it, because they say it was normal.  When the light flashed for the last time...We are in dark. BLACKOUT. haha..is funny...our steamboat night become a romantic candle light dinner. Everyone is eating in the darkXD

Finish eating... some of us decide to sit along the corridor to get some fresh air. We chat with our phone's light on. Well..the atmosphere is quite nice. Come as a surprise, is quite cozy to chat in dark, though it is a bit cramp...haha. Since you can't see their face clearly, then you will tend to listen carefully. Is really nice... Long time didn't have such a conversation with you guys..When was our last talk?? hardly remember.haha..

Suddenly, heard somebody singing birthday song. haha..I sang along reflexively and by the same time, recalling my memory--"who's birthday??"XD I get it, when the birthday cake appeared in front of me. Is my CELEBRATION. wow...Truthfully, I get startled that time, is a surprise to me. I do not expect a pre- celebrationXD. Is a week before my birthday.haha.. Is really funny..As usual...make a wish..blow out the candle..cut the cake and EAT~~!!! I LOVE CAKE~!! haha...Really appreciate that you guys try to give me a surprise...is really a surprise..haha..thanks to those who sing along the birthday song and celebrate for me^^ million thanks...Muacksss..and special thanks to huoy san that held this event, si kuan and yoke wah that plan for this, and simon for being driver.

My night ended merrily. Is meaningful and memorable. I will always remember the night that we eat steamboat in the dark, chat in the dark and celebrate in the dark.haha. Love you guys^^

~thx for everything~wish u all happy always^^~